But I deserved that!

56f27ac96f73f62f1a9061bb317304cfI may be a little late to the game, but in the last few weeks Raine and I have been watching the series “Suits”. Watching, binging, obsessing, getting sucked in, being emotionally traumatized, whatever you want to call it, has been quite the experience for me. I can’t help but get involved with the characters in whichever media entertainment Raine and find ourselves enjoying together. In “Suits”, one character in particular (Louis Litt) never can seem to catch a break (mostly due to shooting himself in foot) and continually cries out by various means and ways for respect and getting his due. At times it is comical, at times heart-breaking, but is always compelling for me personally because the show’s writers so powerfully portray what is innate within all of us, the desire to get what we think we deserve in life.

Yes, I know. You don’t need to say it. We really don’t deserve anything. From a big picture perspective, on a theological level, God owes us nothing. He extends grace and mercy to us which, by definition, we can’t say we deserve. On a day to day, earthly level though, we have all experienced those situations where we truly have done everything right, everything proper, with pure motives, yet in spite of all that we have been given zero reward, no recognition, and no blessing. What then? Where is God in those times? Can’t we cry out, “But I deserved that!”?

We can, and we would be correct. There are times we DO deserve the award, the promotion, the respect, the clean bill of health. So, if God is good, if God really loves us, if God truly cares, and is genuinely all-powerful, why doesn’t it feel that way and seem that way sometimes, often times?

Simply put, God is more than loving, caring, and powerful. He is also sovereign. He has purposes and plans for us which are bigger, more expansive, and more meaningful than what our finite and limited eyes can see, heart can feel, and mind is able to understand. When we don’t get what we think we deserve, even when we DO deserve it, we have to accept that what God deemed best for us was not what we deserved and be ok with that.

God’s promise to us is not achieving everything we want, desire, and deserve in this life but that in His time and in His way, He will exalt those who faithfully submit to His will (1st Peter 5:6-7). It is easy to find ourselves charging God with injustice but there is no injustice with God. God’s love and care, combined with His sovereignty means we may not get what we deserve but we will most certainly get what is best.

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